Today would have been Wayne's 56th birthday. I am finding today to be most difficult. He should have lived to see it. He had so much more he wanted to see and do. He wasn't ready to die. And none of his family was ready to see him die.
So today I went out and got gooey rich chocolate cake with several of my friends and we toasted him with cake and honored his birthday. But tonight I am so sad.
I remember Wayne's 40th birthday. We had recently moved to Leavenworth, and he loved that we had a mountain in our back yard. So he decided to climb it the night before his birthday and sleep up there so that he could awake and be able to look out and down on the whole area. And he wanted to do it alone. So he did and he really loved the experience. He loved birthdays.
So happy birthday, my love, my soul mate. I will continue to celebrate your birthdays for you. I love you and miss you more than I can ever convey in a written message. I hope that wherever you are, you are celebrating too.
I think of Wayne everday with love in my heart.
ReplyDeleteMaybe one to many beers, but sure am feeling sad and missing Wayne.
ReplyDeleteIt hits me every night like clockwork. i go to bed, talk to Wayne and start to cry. I really miss him. Lately, it's struck me how much he wanted to do that he didn't get to. For starters, he wanted to see the rest of the USA, he wanted to walk on the Great Wall of China, and most especially, he wanted to play with his grandchildren. I wish he could have done these things. I feel so sad that he didn't get to.
ReplyDeleteI also wish he could have experienced the things he did not, but he will watch his grandbabies (when they come) from heaven and watch over them and keep them safe. Wayne was one of the most giving people I ever knew.
ReplyDeleteSitting outside soaking up the sun just as Wayne used to love doing. Thinking of him always.
ReplyDeleteYes, Wayne was a very giving person. He was also the most patient and gentle man I ever met. It is hard for me to know he won't be able to help teach his grandchild these wonderful qualities. As I get ready to finally move back home, I think about him almost constantly. I have never lived in Leavenworth or Wenatchee without him, and a part of me thinks he might still be there, but he isn't in body, only in spirit. But I haven't been aching to just sit with his things, and now I finally can. And going back to work should help too. I start my new job next week, I think. But I sure wish he were here with me. I miss him so much.
ReplyDeleteI know. I miss him too, but draw strength knowing that he is looking down upon us and sending his love.
ReplyDeleteThinking of you all as you spread Wayne's ashes today in the Leavensworth/Wenatchee area. Thinking of Wayne always. I know it will be a good day for all and Wayne will be looking down upon you:)
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