Sunday, April 3, 2011
Wayne
For those of you who are not family, I have sad news to share. Wayne lost his fight yesterday afternoon. He went peacefully, surrounded by him entire family except Amanda, who missed it by just two hours. At least she had seen him in February, and during the last good days he had. We don't know any of the details yet and are going to wait until tomorrow to plan, but there will be a memorial service in Missoula this week, and a commemoration of life service in Leavenworth next week sometime. Thank you for everyone who wrote comments and for those of you who just wrote to me by email or called. There are many more of you as well. He was a man well loved and he will be horribly missed.
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Strange--is it not?--that of the myriads who
ReplyDeleteBefore us passed the door of Darkness through,
Not one returns to tell us of the road
Which to discover we must travel too.
You know how little while we have to stay,
And, once departed, may return no more.
Think, in this battered Caravanserai,
Whose Portals are alternate Night and Day,
How Sultan after Sultan with his Pomp
Abode his destined Hour, and went his way.
Like wind flies Time 'tween birth and death;
Therefore, as long as thou hast breath,
Of care for two days hold thee free:
The day that was and is to be.
The world will turn when we are earth
As though we had not come nor gone;
There was no lack before our birth,
When we are gone there will be none.
To-morrow's fate, though thou be wise,
Thou canst not tell nor yet surmise;
Pass, therefore, not to-day in vain,
For it will never come again.
When you and I behind the Veil are past.
A book of Verses underneath the Bough,
A Jug of Wine, A Loaf of Bread, and Thou
Beside me singing in the Wilderness--
On, Wilderness were Paradise enow!
Sleep gently, Sweet Prince.
"I am leaving you with a gift~peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So dont be troubled or afraid."
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Wayne you are forever in our Hearts and always with us in spirt!! The family is in my thoughts and prayers!!
Please join us for a celebration of my dad's life on April 16th at the chumstick grange at 621 front street I Leavenworth, wa.
ReplyDelete3 pm reception
4 pm service
Potluck reception to follow
Please bring any pictures or stories you'd like to share and a dish for the potluck. We hope to see you there. feel free to call us with questions
Amanda 206-898-1548
Barbara 406-483-5091
John this poem is beautiful and we will read it at the service. Thank you. I love you!
ReplyDeleteLosing my brother has been almost unbearable to handle. I will be honest and tell you that I am having a very hard time.
ReplyDeleteThis poem has brought me comfort and I hope that it will help others as well.
God saw you getting tired
When a cure was not be be.
So he closed his arms around you
And whispered, "Come to me."
You didn't deserve what you went through
And so he gave you rest.
God's garden must be beautiful,
For he only takes the best.
And when I saw you sleeping.
So peaceful and free from pain,
I could not wish you back,
To suffer that again.
Author Unknown
Also to anyone who did not see what Celine posted on Facebook,I would like to also share this with you.
Perhaps they are not the stars, but rather openings in Heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy.
Author Unknown
Donna,
ReplyDeleteThat poem is wonderful. Would you read it or have one of your daughters read it at the Leavenworth service? I'd also like Sharney to read hers if she would. I will speak again, and my son-in-law will be ready to step in for me again. I will be adding to my speech. I wrote the last one in less than two hours. Not enough time to do him the justice he deserved. I too am having a very hard time with losing my husband and soul mate. And I am afraid I am losing it. The shock is totally worn off, and I can't stop crying. And I have turned into a bitch beyond belief. I am lost without him. In my mind's eye, I see him, whole and healthy, long hair and beard. And I could feel him, what it felt like to put his arms around me and pull me in tight, what his neck and shoulder felt like as I lay my head against him. And I could feel the strength he gave me with that love. And I could go on. But when I saw him all I could do is cry because I will never have that in this life again. And yet I am so grateful that I was able to do this. But it's hard. I dreamt of him just before I woke this morning and I went nuts when faced with the reality. In the midst of packing, I have taken to my bed and left poor Denise and Amanda on their own to get it done. I am so anxious to be back in Washington, among my friends and family who love me and yet I am leaving forever the last place I lived with Wayne and having to move to a place he has never seen. It is so hard and it's killing me to watch. The strength that got me through the things I absolutely had to do is gone. But I know with time it will get better. I wish I could take comfort with God like you do, but I can't. I feel like I alone have to do this and I am far from ready to try.
Wayne was the finest man I have ever known. I think I fell in love with him when I watched him help a two-year-old Amanda with her sparklers on the Fourth. He was patient and gentle and he really wanted her to experience the fun of them, so he stayed with her, helping for a very long time, until her fears were gone and she was happily waving it around alone. And then he was there to grab the wires when they were spent so that she didn't accidentally burn herself. And we weren't even going out yet. He was just my friend.
Anyway, bring the poems to the service please They are both very appropriate.
Also--we are leaving on Tuesday, the 11th so I won't have a phone for a while. Call Mandy with questions or email me at balsorenson@yahoo.com.
ReplyDeleteYesterday I attended the service in Leavenworth for Wayne. Amanda you did a wonderful job of putting together such a nice service. Thank you Celine for going with me and supporting me. I was honored to speak at the sevice.
ReplyDeleteFor my dearest sweetest brother, I love you Wayne, forever!!! Please keep smiling down upon us with your love. I feel you spirit with me always.
It was a great service. I'm glad I was able to make it up there! It was nice seeing you mandi, hopefully you can come back up in August!
ReplyDeleteI know it's been a month since we lost Wayne but it hurts as much as the same day. Thinking of you always Wayne.
ReplyDeleteI have to echo that. I am not doing well. I love you Wayne. I will always love you. No amount of time will ever change that.
ReplyDeleteI am gald that you have kept the blog up. I like to check to see if anyone is still writing. I know that we all think of Wayne all of the time. Hang in there Barb.
ReplyDeletewow, wasn't thinking anyone would still be on here. Just needed to look back. Just finishing the book Lucille gave us " Heaven is for Real" if you haven't read it. Do so! It's helping and if you don't have it, let me know.
ReplyDeleteI love that book. Now the ladies that I work with are reading it. I have always been a strong believer, but the books really puts everything into perpespective.
ReplyDeleteEveryone at my work is reading the book as well. Loved it. I know that are gentle kind souled brother made his journey home safe. Hope they play "Rock and Roll" in Heaven for him.
ReplyDeleteThere is no doubt in my mind that he and Jude spend all their time rocking out to music. He comes to me in my dreams every night so I know that he is ok.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you are still writing in here. I check in frequently. I still miss Wayne like it was yesterday. I sure wish I had your faith in where he is. I wonder daily, wanting to know that he is safe in a great place. I know that where ever he is, he is listening to his rock and roll.
ReplyDeleteFaith is what gets us through. He comes to me in my dreams all the time to let me know he is ok. In fact the other night both he and Jude came to see me. There is no doubt that he is ok. He is with Jesus.
ReplyDeleteI am glad faith helps you. I seem to have lost the faith that I had. I see Wayne in dreams too. Just last night I had a wonderful dream about him, where he was healthy and had his hair and beard again. But when I wake up it hurts more for the contrast. I have never cried like this in my life and now I can't seem to stop crying. I can't eat either; food just feels like it's going to stick in my throat, my mouth is dry and it all tastes like cardboard.
ReplyDeleteAll you have to do is ask God for strength and he will help restore your faith. Remember that Wayne is only gone from the earth but will forever be in our hearts and minds.
ReplyDeleteTwo months ago yesterday we lost Wayne and the pain is still fresh and I am very sad. I guess it's a reminder of how much we love him. I love you Wayne and you will be with me forever.
ReplyDeleteHappy Father's Day, dad. I'm thinking about you today and always.
ReplyDeleteWayne's and my anniversary was Monday, and while I didn't post then, I did have a very bad day. Following on the heels of Father's Day it wasn't fun. Wayne I missed you for Father's Day and our anniversary. I miss you every day. So happy anniversary My Love, I wish we'd have been together. I will miss you and love you always.
ReplyDeleteJust want to say happy birthday, my love. I can't believe you've been gone for three and a half months already. It still feels like last week. miss you so much. I love you always. I was thinking yesterday about your 40th birthday, when you hiked up the mountain alone so you could wake up there. This year you are up high somewhere too. I hope your view is wonderful.
ReplyDeleteI posted a birthday wish for you Wayne on Facebook but also wanted it here. I think of you always. Of course your view is beautiful, for you are in heaven.
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